Positive thoughts and practices are the
weights that keep us sharp and toned.
I jogged today, like usual.
I also very recently found out about the young black man, Ahmaud Abery, that was jogging and got murdered by two white supremacists.
I didn’t run at my usual time. I'm a morning workout person. I love jogging in the morning with the permeating crisp breeze before the sun reaches its total ascension. However, I woke up too late to work out before I went to work.
After work, I looked up when sunset was and it wasn't until 8:19pm.
I came home, got changed, grabbed my workout partner, (my dog, Sable☺) and we started jogging around 7:40pm. My jogs are usually 30 minutes or less so I felt like I'd make it back before it got totally dark.
We started our jog and we were doing great. I wanted to make it a quick run, so we had good speed.
All was well...until the thought of the Ahmaud Abery illegitimately losing his life while jogging surfaced back to the top of my mind.
It hit me like a ton of bricks.
It must’ve slipped my mind that my purpose of running was to celebrate Ahmaud’s 26th birthday.
The thought hit me like I just heard it for the first time all over again. I think it's because I realized
I was performing the same action he was before his life was taken.
With an “out of breath” whisper, I said "Please God, let me make it home.”
As the sun set more, without even realizing, my jogging pace sped up.
Now, I'm blessed to live in a nice place and I jog around 3 times a week and haven't had many problems, but, I automatically felt like a target was on my back.
Yes, there were other people walking and strolling, but they didn't have the same skin complexion as I do.
As I was coming down my last hill, a black truck was coming the opposite way. It was driving relatively slow as it crept half way up the hill and began to turn down a side road.
As the truck turned, there was a white muscular forearm hanging outside of the window and I felt myself hesitate.
As the car disappeared, I got so angry.
Why do I have to feel and live like this?
Yes, I'm a God girl and ask God to cover me each and every day, but with horrific incidents happening like this with no rapid consequences (He was killed in February) being done, this world does not give me the comfort of feeling safe.
When will it stop? *takes deep breath*
Whenever an innocent black life is lost, I go through various emotions of devastation,
sadness, anger.....anger....anger, sympathy & more. This, however, is the first time I'm writing about it.
I think this blog post was more for me than it was for you.
Having an outlet to release is truly therapeutic.
If you've read this far, I want to thank you for hearing me and seeing life from my point of view for a few minutes.
There's still a lot to be done in this world, but I somehow have hope and faith this
world will be a better place in my lifetime and I will be a part of that betterment.
2 Timothy 1:7 – For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and love, and of a sound mind.
The "Ahmaud Arbery Run Challenge" took place last Friday, May 8th, on his birthday. People in various places walked/jogged/ran 2.23 miles in his honor. Search #runwithmaud to see everyone who participated.